displaced

i was sitting in law this afternoon and all of a sudden i felt sad. there i was sitting in up, one of the places i loved the most sharing fishballs with my blockmates in law. and felt so weird. different.

it finally dawned on me that life is no longer the same.

i missed the prayer meetings. i missed the people. how could it be that on a thursday afternoon i was sitting there in law eating fishballs while waiting to be picked up so i could go home and study? i guess, when your undergrad is as wonderful as mine was it will really be a tough act to follow. all of a sudden, i had the urge to go to AS to the yfc tambayan and see the familiar faces and get a hug.

knowing that i am in the same place and everyone else isn't made me feel so displaced. and sad.

in my block now, im not sure that i belong. im this soft-voiced girl who always has to wait her turn to speak, lest never be heard. i guess now, here, im not sure which role i have to play. where i stand with people. how good a friend i am, and it makes me sad. i feel as if now im no longer sure of anything.

familiarity does NOT breed contempt.

i love familiarity.