conversation with pi
sophia: hi pi!
sophia:
Pi: ia girl!
Pi: howru doing? tapos na classes mo?
sophia: finished, but have to study for a 7pm study group
Pi: and this is a 5-minute break for you?
sophia: not naman 5 mins.
sophia: its a break before i start actually.
sophia: kauuwi ko lang.
sophia: first day to study home.
sophia: kasi sa lib masyado marami chismis
Pi: howru enjoying law?
sophia: its hard.
sophia: i question myself everyday
sophia: tipong, what am i doing here?
Pi: question, anong name nung med-student-turned-law-student na classmate mo?
sophia: its super hard for me, a chore to make myself study
Pi: kayang-kaya mo yan ia. as you told me yourself, you're in your element.
sophia: now am not so sure.
sophia:
sophia: parang, i keep setting myself up to fail. although, i havent pa naman.
sophia: but i get so lazy to read, kahit na alam ko i cant afford to slack off.
sophia: pero, sheer force na lang talaga ang nagpapaaral sa akin.
sophia: but it doesnt come naturally
Pi: give yourself time to adjust. galing ka pang bum mode e. same thing happened to me when i started work.
sophia: talaga?
sophia: im just worried kasi i feel somehow na i might be pushing myself towards something na i know i can only be mediocre at at best.
sophia: i lose sleep thinking about it, yet when i study hindi ko ma-feel na im in my element. parang, i feel so lost in all of this.
Pi: ia, i think you're thinking too far ahead. it's like meeting some guy for the first time and then worrying in your head about how many kids you'd want together after your wed.
Pi: este wedding.
Pi:
sophia: hmm.
sophia: ture.
Pi: you'll be fine.
sophia: sorry ha.
Pi: nuh frablem.
sophia: kasi i get pissed off seeing as to how some people revel in the pleasure and i can barely get by
Pi: e may mga taong ganyan talaga. hayaan mo na.
sophia: and then i think, law alone will not make me happy din naman.
sophia: i keep thinking it will lead me to be something else.
Pi: well, we're not usually just happy with one thing. find something else you can do alongside law that'll add to your happiness level.
Pi: besides, after much soul-searching out of the country, you came to decide on law. kaka-start mo pa lang naman. it's too early to make doomsday judgments about it already.
sophia: true.
sophia: thanks pi
sophia: youre helping me a lot already
sophia: btw, his name is vp palafox.
sophia: why?
Pi: ah. someone in aylc did that kasi ata. pero hindi siya yun.
Pi: some other name.
Pi: nagla-law na rin ngayon pero galing med ata.
sophia: ah, okay.
Pi: now, just breathe and give yourself a BIG HUG!
Pi:
sophia:
sophia: thanks for the words pi!
sophia: youve helped me a lot.
Pi: no problem ia. you've helped me through a lot of things too.
Pi: especially when i was down here at work.
sophia: no prob pi
conversation with rex
Romero: hi!
Romero: lurkier!
Romero: lurker!
sophia: lurkier?
sophia:
sophia: ano balita sayo?
sophia: bat ka busy?
Romero: homework
sophia: ah okay.
sophia: ako rin mag-aaral na in a while.
sophia: may tanong a ko sayo tsong
Romero: sige ba
sophia: pano ko malalaman na im where im supposed to be?
Romero: hahaha
Romero: that was kinda loaded
Romero: hmmm...
Romero: put it this way...
Romero: on one hand,
Romero: you never really know
Romero: on the other hand,
Romero: you'll know when you know
Romero: especially when you're RIGHT THERE
Romero: it's just up to you to summon the guts to stand up and go get it
Romero: be where you're supposed to be, i mean
Romero: did that make sense?
Romero: hahaha.
sophia: ganito na lang.
Romero: most probably i'm just as lost as you
sophia: kasi, araaw araw i question why im studying law/
sophia: hirap talaga ako.
sophia: parang wala sa loob ko mag-aral.
sophia: hindi ko alam if symptom ba yan na its not for me,
sophia: or naghahanap lang ako ng dahilan para maging tamad.
sophia: parang, i want to stay for the wrong reasons.
Romero: pwede pareho
Romero: we can't expect all of our activities
Romero: to "capture our imagination"
Romero: all the time
Romero: most often, inspiration is lost in the drudgery of the menial work
Romero: of getting to your goal
Romero: its like,
Romero: you know when you love the feeling of being atop a mountain?
Romero: seeing the sunrise amid nature's splendor?
Romero: but you curse under your breath while trekking that thorny trail on the way up?
sophia: tsong, nakikita mo ba ako dun?
sophia: minsan kasi ako hindi ko makita yung sarili ko dun
Romero: alam mo
Romero: you'd make a good lawyer
Romero: you're smart and articulate
Romero: come to think of it,
Romero: because you ARE amart and articulate
Romero: you'd make a good whatever-you'd-like-to-be
sophia: huwaw
sophia: salamat ha.
Romero: maybe you just have to finish SOMETHING
sophia: alam mo, ikaw talaga ang gusto ko kausap sa mga ganito.
sophia: pramis.
Romero: so you get to see yourself become the good something you worked for
Romero: if you keep on "looking around"
Romero: you might not get to finish anything at all
sophia: totoo.
Romero: paano ka magiging good-whatever niyan?
sophia: baka nga im just getting caught up in the workings of pressure.
sophia: minsan kasi pag nagtatanong ako sa tatay ko, nakikita ko na natatangahan siya sa akin eh
Romero: huh?
Romero: anong natatangahan siya sa iyo?
sophia: parang hindi niya maintindihan ano ang hindi ko maintindihan kasi simple lang yun
sophia: parang nagda-doubt siya as to whether im smart enough to become a lawyer
Romero: hahaha
sophia: tapos, ako rin nagda-doubt
Romero: ganito na lang
Romero: if you already knew what he did
Romero: shouldn't you have been a lawyer right now?
Romero:
sophia: daanin na lang ba natin sa pilosopohan
sophia: pero salamat ha.
Romero: hahaha
sophia: at least napag-iisipan ko.
Romero: not exactly
Romero: pero parang ganun na rin siguro
Romero: sige
Romero: to put it another way
sophia: nakakagulat kasi i always thought, when i was in new york, na mafifeel ko na i am in my element pag dating ko sa law school
Romero: tanga ka kapag hindi mo natutunan ang bagong bagay
sophia: tapos ngayon, parang hinahanap ko yung feeling na yun, tapos ala.
Romero: kahit paulit-ulit nang ipagawa sa iyo
Romero: pero,
sophia: pero siguro minsan, gaya ng sabi mo, kailangan mo kasi tapusin.
Romero: paano ka magiging tanga sa bagay na hindi mo alam?
Romero: kundi man, hindi mo naiintindihan as a lawyer should?
Romero: i think kaya nga aaralin mo e
Romero: para ma-polish sa iyo
Romero: i used to get into arguments with my "senpai" (senior student) here
Romero: parati siya noon, "ano ka ba, hindi mo pa alam yan?" (referring to my japanese)
Romero: i always retorted, "ito, akala mo hindi pumasok ng grade one-diretso kaagad ng college"
Romero: kasi kung "alam ko na ang japanese"
Romero: ba't ko pa aaralin?
Romero: diba?
Romero: magiging tanga ako kapag hindi ako nag-improve
Romero: ay, come to think of it...
Romero: tanga na anga siguro ako, ehehehe
Romero:
sophia: ahehehe.
sophia: hindi naman.
sophia: ikaw pa.
Romero: "grade 1" pa rin ata ang japanese ko eh
Romero: hihihihi
God gave me such wonderful friends.
i will attempt to study now i think. pray for me!
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