Tuesday, April 06, 2010

beginnings and endings

Why does it take so long to begin? Sometimes I wonder where this mentality of crammers comes from, the thought that most functions don't kick in till there is literally no more time to spare. I have been trying to begin reading for the past 5 days and then postponing it because the conditions aren't right or the vibes aren't there.

I know that if my back was to the wall or if I was someone with no options I would be breaking my back trying to outdo the entire world. And yet, I also know that on some level, this is my last stretch of rope.

Lord, I pray that I find the motivation to perform under any condition, and to really truly learn the lesson, in everything I encounter. Please remind me to make each day count, and also that there are people who would be grateful even just for the chance.

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