talk is cheap? i think not.

sophia: mare, hidni ka punta sa chapter assembly
Gail: hindi egh
sophia: networking chorva?
Gail: oo
Gail: kailangang kumita eh
sophia: hmm.
Gail: kaw?
sophia: hindi na rin siguro
sophia: hindi ka naman punta
sophia: and hindi pa ako nag-aaral
sophia: mare, puro reklamo ba ang naririnig mo from me tungkol sa law?
sophia: sa totoo lang
Gail: oo, ung ibang sinasabi mo kung hindi reklamo tungkol sa mga boys which is not really bad...
sophia:
sophia: nagagalit ka na ba sa akin?
sophia: sige. hindi na ako magsasalita
sophia: masama ba yung labas nun?
sophia: nahihirapan talaga ako eh.
sophia: tapos, ang nakakapagpalubag ng loob ko na lang pag iniisip ko na bobo na ko ay yung thought na kahit na ganun, may naaliw pa rin sa akin.
sophia: parang, nag-gigive up na ako sa thought na pwede pa akong tumalino sa law.
sophia: naintindihan mo?
sophia: hindi ko mapagtanto kung tama pa yung mga dahilan ko sa pagstay.
sophia: anjan ka pa?
Gail: oo
Gail: nagsstaple ako eh
Gail: well
Gail: maybe u have to think things thoroughly
Gail: hoy
Gail: nandyan ka pa
sophia: oo, nag-aayos ng files.
sophia: mag-aattempt ako mag-aral maya-maya.
sophia: mare, efeling mo ba kaya ko to?
sophia: ako, araw-araw, parang nababawasan yung kasiguraduhan.
sophia: lagi ko sinasabi, its only a place to start. pero, parang, nahihirapan na ako maniwala.
Gail: oo
sophia: parang, walang dumadating na proof.
sophia: na dapat pa ako nandito.
Gail: kya lang feeling ko ur so bothered by so many other stuff
sophia: kasi hindi naman ako nag-iimprove
Gail: nawawala ang focus mo
Gail: lam mo, patience is a very useful with ur situation right now
Gail: hindi naman lahat nakukuha sa blis
Gail: bakit naman naiisip mo yang mga bagay na yan?
sophia: eh kasi kanina nagka-recit na naman ako tapos panget pa rin
Gail: isipin mo ung mga times before na sobra kang desperate to get in sa law school
sophia: eh ito na yung subject na iniisip ko na makakakuha ako ng maayos na recit kasi gusto ko yung teacher
Gail: feeling mo the world will stop pag hindi mo un nagawa
Gail: well ganun talaga me mga bagay naman na kahit gaano mo kagusto hindi ka magiging magaling ng ganun kabilis
sophia: tapos this girl hindi talaga siya ang-aral, tapos she got a better grade than me.
Gail: well it happens naman maski nung undegrad pa tau diba
Gail: some groups did not prepare well pero they were able to perform better..minsan subjective kahit tingin mo pangit mataas pa rin grade nila...why dont u start in thinking that u like what youre doing
Gail: dont like it because u get good grades in it
Gail: isipin mo
Gail: its good to be on top of the class from the beginnig
Gail: pero kung at this moment hindi mo pa kabisado at nag-aadjust ka pa lang sa mundong ginagalawan mo
Gail: dont force it..
Gail: di ba mas maganda na u started from nothing pero in the end u will be on top of the class
Gail: wag mong isipin na u have to be great from the start..u have to do your best
sophia: i wanna be at the top of the class!
sophia: but it seems like its such an impossible feat.
Gail: pero it doesnt mean hindi ka na mapupunta sa top
Gail: impossible is nothing...
Gail: impossible is an opinion
Gail: its a possibility
Gail: impossibility is one option
Gail: dont choose that
Gail: choose the other one
Gail: ive been in that kind of situation before
Gail: one thing i realized now
Gail: mahirap talaga
Gail: and theres no other way for you to go but mive forward
Gail: u simply have to be strong and patient
Gail: alam mo ung gusto mo na lang lamunin ka ng mundo>
Gail: ?
Gail: ganun
Gail: as in ayaw mo na pero wla kang choice?
Gail: oy email mo sa akin ang thoughts mo
Gail: pour it out
Gail: alis na ko
Gail: ia,
sophia: okay mare
Gail: ill just be here for you
sophia: salamat sa words mo.
sophia: sana magkita tayo
sophia: para maka-iyak ako
Gail: i really want to know how you feel exactly
Gail: oo nga eh
Gail: teka
sophia: feeling ko, hidni ko ma-express
Gail: kaya mo yan ]
Gail: get it out
Gail: ok
sophia: natatawa na lang ako lagi pero sa totoo lang bobong bobo na ako sa sarili ko
Gail:
Gail: now is the time to make yourself your best ally
Gail: if not now kelan
Gail: kung hindi mo kaya sino?
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sophia: hi faith
Pi: hi ia!
sophia: hay.
sophia: i had recit again
sophia:
sophia: i havent had a good one ever
sophia: shocks.
sophia: am starting to get discouraged.
sophia: honestly, i think i get too distracted by peripheral things. like, boys
Pi: *patpatpat* don't be.
sophia:
sophia: sa totoo lang ha.
sophia: may ghad.
sophia: am becoming a giggly girl pi!
sophia: Pi:
sophia: its not funny!
Pi:
sophia: minsan i just really cant concentrate kasi im too busy being kilig.
sophia: parang, ive become study-impaired.
Pi: ia = )
Pi: ?
sophia: pero, really, im starting to think i dont belong.
sophia: even when i do get to study, i still get beyond bad recits.
sophia: then when i was thinking about it this morning, i havent had a good one pala. sophia: no wonder everyone seems to think im stupid.
sophia: it shows
Pi: ia, you are being overly paranoid.
Pi: you should get over that insecurity. you all passed the entrance exams and interviews for law, right? you're all on equal footing.
Pi: now if you continue to think that way, you might condition yourself to believe that...and that's crap. you're as good as the rest of the people you're with. even better.
sophia: but why do i seem to be shooting myself in the foot with all my recits?
sophia: this is bad, but this girl ran circles around me, and she didnt even study! grabe. sophia: i studied, and then, nothing.
sophia: was drawing answers like they came out of a hat. praying to god i got the right one. sophia: shet.
Pi: maybe you're too busy being nervous.
sophia: i dont know
Pi:
Pi: just resolve to do better next time. and if boys are distracting you, will yourself to set them aside when it comes to study time.
sophia: faith, i keep telling myself na where i am now, its just a place to start.
sophia: na i can only get better in time.
Pi: and believe it.
sophia: but i find it harder to believe everyday
Pi:
Pi: we all have bouts of self-questioning.
sophia: ive never had one that lasted this long and felt sooooooo real.
sophia: grabe, i know im always the one who seems to be complaining pi, but thanks
sophia: really.
sophia: you think im cut out for this?
Pi: yes i do.
Pi: i really do.
Pi: sophia:
sophia: thanks.
sophia: i seem to be working on the basis of everyone else's belief.
sophia: parang, now, i find it hard to convince myself again.
Pi: we wouldn't have believed if you didn't in the first place ia.
sophia: oooh. kinda hard to do that now.
sophia: dont stop believing!!!
Pi:  i wont >:D<