lonely but not alone

after a simple catching up with really old friends two nights ago, i was really really surprised to hear that one of us got married. and i didn't even know he was seeing someone serious! we got to talk about how even though they were young, he felt as if they were both ready and why would he waste time when he was already sure that she was the one he wanted to wake up next to him in the mornings.

while i myself am not in a hurry to get married, the fact that little by little, my friends (who are of the same age) are getting married has not escaped me. it made me wonder how someone my age gets to that place. that spot in your life when you are so sure of that person that you commit to an entire lifetime with them. i can't even commit to my postgraduate course and it only takes four years!

and so feeling lonely as i began to read this book izzy gave to me (when God writes your love story. while i am not all that keen on christian bible based doctrine, i WAS really curious to read about what they perceived was my mistake. why it was taking me so long to even get to the path that takes me to the place), i texted my thoughts and general feeling of loneliness to others who might be pondering on life's questions too. and who might be awake at 1 in the morning.

TEXT: "jst found out my frng got married already. hmm. have you ever had the feeling that everybody's moving on and ure being left behind? i fil as if m stuck. like i need a remedy to actually move on."

this was what my friends had to say:

Mady: "Lst month. my exboyfriend emailed me that he got married and hes with his wife in Singapore. When he told me that, I felt a different shade of loneliness..."

Lori: "Oh, ia, can relate! Happens to me quite often these days! Esp since half of my HS brkda are happily married w/ kids & of the single ones, i'm the only 1 who's nt in a relationship!"

Berna: "Yeah, especially at my age. Ur not aloneÜ"

she-who-must-not-be-named: "Yes, i do. I guess bec these are major decisions they're making, and i'm not even capable of making a good decision that's not major. I don't really believe in marriage, but somehow, i can't help but be disturbed if i'll ever make the same decisions. being left behind? i feel that so many times. lost in law schl"

Tessa: "Ay sus. U're not alone no. F u feel lyk dat, pano pa kaya ako. Kya smile, u're not alone. Harharhar."

Rocky: "Hey! Hahaha! Yeah, i do know. F its happening 2 u, i bet i knw more who's getting married. Bt hey, ain't nothn i can do abt it. Dr tym is nw, my tym s jst comin. Y fret? I believe God wil snd it my way. Its hst hell waiting. Ü"

RJ: "Many times."

Faith: "Yes, i've had that feeling many times over. *hug* y'know, change isn't always the big thing people make it to be. You've taken your own steps forward, ia."

Hmm. So to anyone who is reading this who has asked the same question at least once in their life, know you are not alone. Ü