Friday, September 10, 2004

slow breath

today is a much needed rest. i can actually breathe easy knowing that i would not see any of my professors. not hear about the backlog in cases that i have to go over. just me. in my bed. eating breakfast with my dad. just like we used to. i miss it.

we talked about my plans to go on an even bigger break -- a shift from day to night class. i think the idea is beginning to grow on me. im beginning to really like it. my dad doesnt seem to have much of an objection except to point out that it'll just lengthen the course of my studies. i dont really mind. im young. a lot younger than he was when he started law school. and i think it will keep me saner. to have a life apart from law school. to not spend everyday just sitting in the library. to live more. to have less irrational teachers. it sounds really inspired. of course, protagonists of the day classes will say its a bad idea. night class students are stupider. they forum shop. but aren't they smarter because of that? they know what they can handle and they take law school by the reins. theyre the ones running the show. they get to choose the best professors too. anyway, a night class student can easily enroll in a good professor's class if it fits into his schedule. i think i will learn better that way. because i don't have anything to prove anyway. and its not as if braving an irrational professor is really much of an achievement. you get more stressed, learn less because of the fear.

of course, this is all just in the process of being thought through. i will pray about it still. but this break is making me see that i really am dead tired, and i have to do something about it.

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