saving face

i feel so frustrated that enlistment in my school has become a veritable death match where students are left to their own devices in order to get the classes they want. the cold clammy feeling of rockbottom was made known to me when, in an attempt to secure the slot i needed in the class that everyone wanted to take, i looked at my professor pointblank and lied to his face.

i didn't get the slot, by the way.

i have to apologize tomorrow. lesson learned: no matter how unfair you think the system is, whatever means you employ, just make sure that you are still able to look at yourself in the mirror afterwards.

shame.