goodbye

today had the strength to make my testimonial for him. maybe because i know its really over. i can finally be free of the what-ifs. i suppose gail's inadvertent conversation really drove the point home.


this was what i had to say. (and i hope to God he will approve itÜ)

he is the unwilling recipient of all my crazy theories about guys and girls, life, and the world at large. he almost never agrees with me, but he listens anyway. that tells you something about this guy. he will always be there to listen and to lend a hand (or in my case 2 hands...he is the only one who is capable of making me forget what im thinking about when my brain is about to overload. he cups my head with both his hands kasiÜ) he is my oldest guy friend, the billy to my ally, and, i don't know if he knows this, but the guy i measure everyone up against. a girl is truly blessed to have a ------ in her life. if at the very least, she has an idea of what a decent guy ought to be.Ü

so, i would like to put this out into the universe. it ends at 10 years. today, jan. 17, 2005, i am saying goodbye to him finally. but he will be missed.

i can finally move on.