Joy

I find this photo both strange and enchanting (image from here)

This week has been tough, but overall, what I would like to take away from it is how there were many moments within it that were just joyful. I wish I had taken more photos - just so I have something to look at when I want to remember. But I was too overcome by joy from having conversations to worry about taking photos.

There is this feeling of everything falling into place. There is a part of me that wants to believe that this is the universe conspiring to give me what I want - not for free, I know. I intend to work hard, and am prepared to accept very little. I am amazed to think about why these things don't scare me too much. I just want to begin.

This is not one of those philosophical posts, but more like a documentation of all the joyous moments I have had this week. For so long, they were few and far between. Now, the month has barely started, and there have been so much that have been keeping me perked up.


I loved how Kippy baked that chicken perfectly, and how we made mashed potatoes to go with it. I enjoyed devouring that meal while we watched Top Chef All-Stars till the very end.

I loved how I stayed up till 5 to read that book I was reading. I reveled in the thought that if I was enjoying what I was reading, the time I spent doing it would go by so fast. It is my 24th book for the year 2011. I love that part too.

I loved the dinner with Ana. I loved the conversations, I even loved the food. I loved how we shared Kakuni buns and tasty ramen with pork belly and braised beef and how we had deep fried oreos covered in corn flakes. I loved it when she told me I looked shiny and new when I was talking about The Plan. How she believed i was on the right track finally. I loved how we were able to talk about her feelings towards work, and how I was able to share about Conan and the 4-hour workweek. I love conversations that make you feel you can go through another week.

I loved the surprise "hang" with Vin as organized by Deng. I even loved how it felt a bit like I had stumbled onto the set of Entourage, like I was being approved before I could work with the A-List crowd. I loved it when he said he thought my head seemed like a fun place to live in, how he thought it was very cool to meet me, and how he loved our concept. I loved that I could chat up cool strangers again, no matter how small the conversation. I loved it when he shared that he had taken the bar twice and got kicked out of law school for alcoholism. I loved that he wanted to work with me because I was someone who gave a shit. I am excited for the idea that my dreams can come true. It does feel like things are falling into place.

I enjoyed how supportive Joanne was of everything I've said. I love where our friendship is at now. I hope I can be there more for her, and continue to be the kind of friend she needs.

I loved meeting Zane, loved that she said we were so similar. Loved meeting someone raw and cool and honest like that. I loved her ideas for the events project. I loved her simplicity, how she thought it was cool that I was prepared to risk more to do what I want. I loved that she told me she loved my outfit. I loved that I was able to wear my 6 inch heels.

I loved that when I got home, I was able to watch the entire season 7 of Entourage in the family room while sipping a green tea latte.

I love how we spent Saturday night, running through restaurants so we could sample everything on our food passport. I loved that I was able to wear tights with boots again. I loved my whole outfit actually. I wish someone had taken a photo! I loved that I enjoyed chatting up Tita Lynn and Anna and that Pam and Juno were so nice. I enjoyed most of the food we ate, particularly the salmon carpaccio, the beef ribs adobado, the minced chicken in lettuce cups, the kakuni buns, the baked oysters, and the 3 scoops of dark chocolate, cherry cheesecake, and mascarpone cheese gelato. I even loved the conversation going home.

Like I said, this week has been packed with joyful moments. This is my way of immortalizing each one.