you get grumpy when you realize how little of your life time goals (pegged at 25) you've actually accomplished, how far you are from the ideal that you thought you would become, or at least become closer to, by the time you turn 25.
people around me never forget to remind me of my complete lack of financial independence, or a stable job for that matter. yes, i still do not have a relationship, and yes, i have gained all that weight. no, i do not have oodles and oodles of money from my "exciting job" and no, i no longer go to church. it is not because i eloped, or got married, or am pregnant. just because it is december does not mean that i have had a personal "immaculate conception". i am the way i am now just because.
do not try to reform me, or renew me or make me feel guilty with offers of prayer. i am fine, i am getting by, i am alive.
yes, i am grumpy. yes, i am far from where i thought i would be.
there are plenty things to be grumpy about. but even on the most difficult days, the universe finds little ways to remind you that there are beautiful things still...all you need to do is to look up to find them.
these are pictures of the sky that i took while driving. only when i am driving do i feel like i am really in control of my destiny, and at the very least when i am driving i can look up at see this.
the sky. one of the few beautiful things that i still believe in.
when all else fails...just look up.
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Remember reality bites? "The only person you have to be at 23 (or 25) is yourself."
Here's to enjoying the ride.
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