wow. i can't believe i just finished the first semester of third year in law school. it's been fun. i can almost say i am happy even. it is weird. there is so much drama going on and yet somehow we surprise ourselves by finding random reasons to smile or to laugh.
yesterday...while i was trying very hard not to study hahaha i passed the time by watching the barbara walters oscar special. she was interviewing ellen degeneres on her "Hello God, it's Ellen" (one of the first routines that put her on the map), and she asked Ellen what she would say to God now. Ellen just said "Thanks!"
i guess if it were me calling God i would say..."thanks for giving me random reasons to smile and laugh. i can't change the people around me, but at least now i can muster up the strength to pull the corners of my mouth into a smile and show off my chompers (along with my odd bungi spot. stupid root canal.)
has it been the change of environment? i don't know. i don't feel as bleak now.
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on the downside...i just heard from a friend that the daughter of a family friend passed away in bahrain. it looks like it was a suicide. i hope she didn't suffer. and i hope that though she couldn't find any reason to smile before she jumped...that she is someplace enjoying big belly laughs and tears her eyes from laughing too much. that she is with people who will hug her forever so she doesn't feel alone again.
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hmm. on a different note...yesterday, i was talking with my good friend ieli about the subtle intimacy that is brought about by knees touching. i wonder if other people think about these things - or if we are just too wrapped up in our little dreamworlds and what-ifs that we put meaning on even the most mundane exchanges.
in any case...touching knees to me seems like a definite high. one of those things that i fear have gotten lost because people are too busy grabbing each other and whatnot in the heat of the moment. the subtle things. the little details.
like neverending phone calls that go on till the morning.
like having someone ask you how your day was, or wishing you a nice day.
like stupid private jokes.
like someone carrying your stuff for you.
like holding hands.
like a hug.
like remembering the smell of someone's hair.
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christmas songs are playing in the malls now, and i must admit i am a sucker for christmas. i always get excited that this year might be different. (it never is, but you never know diba?)
i love even the cheesy christmas mixes played in the grocery stores.
i love the lights.
i love how people are excited when its christmas.
i love how there is always a reason to celebrate.
i love how there is always so much food!
i love having the hope of getting exactly what you wished for.
what gets you excited about christmas?
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