the 200th

woooohhhooooo!!! just realized that this is the 200th post.



200 of the most significant, insignificant, random thoughts and experiences that my 24-year old self has had.

if i were a tv show i'd be earning about $1 Million per episode. or be cancelled. after a few customary closing up episodes.

but since i am a lowly blog, a fairly unvisited blog at that, (maybe i should change my blog name to blag! the rise and fall of an aspiring blog keeper), i have to plow on, without a raise, without a ratings boost, and with the hope of gaining more following (apart from my family hahaha).

what have i learned after 199 posts?

for one, i have finally achieved what i thought was once unachievable. back in the day, when i was a lonely aspiring new yorker, i had set out to create a blog that i could maintain to document thoughts and fun new experiences for those i have left in the philippines to read.

the feat was just so difficult for me to imagine that my first post was nothing more than one paragraph. a rant post at that.

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Tuesday, September 16, 2003
deviance

sometimes i wonder if it's too much to ask to not have anyone expect you to act in the way that they think you should. i wish that i could just run amuck and be lost in my world.

posted by sophie @ 9:00 AM

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and the next post came long after, about 3 months after. funnily, the third post came AFTER i had gotten back from new york. so the real reason why i had kept a blog grew into something more...meaningful.

i have become more introspective. (i didn't know this was possible). i became less conscious of the thoughts i thought. i became more eager to share my weird theories and some of them were good.

a lot of them were ranting but those were good too. finally, i have allowed myself to at the very least acknowledge when i was hurt or sad or feeling alone, and not keep it to myself like i always do.

i learned that when you least expect it, you are able to impart knowledge or stir up emotion in people. and that's good.



200 posts. quite a feat if i say so myself.

here's to bigger and better, silly and sillier.

to more rants, more joys, more pictures, and more of living.

thank you for allowing me to share my life with all of you.