the 200th

woooohhhooooo!!! just realized that this is the 200th post.



200 of the most significant, insignificant, random thoughts and experiences that my 24-year old self has had.

if i were a tv show i'd be earning about $1 Million per episode. or be cancelled. after a few customary closing up episodes.

but since i am a lowly blog, a fairly unvisited blog at that, (maybe i should change my blog name to blag! the rise and fall of an aspiring blog keeper), i have to plow on, without a raise, without a ratings boost, and with the hope of gaining more following (apart from my family hahaha).

what have i learned after 199 posts?

for one, i have finally achieved what i thought was once unachievable. back in the day, when i was a lonely aspiring new yorker, i had set out to create a blog that i could maintain to document thoughts and fun new experiences for those i have left in the philippines to read.

the feat was just so difficult for me to imagine that my first post was nothing more than one paragraph. a rant post at that.

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Tuesday, September 16, 2003
deviance

sometimes i wonder if it's too much to ask to not have anyone expect you to act in the way that they think you should. i wish that i could just run amuck and be lost in my world.

posted by sophie @ 9:00 AM

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and the next post came long after, about 3 months after. funnily, the third post came AFTER i had gotten back from new york. so the real reason why i had kept a blog grew into something more...meaningful.

i have become more introspective. (i didn't know this was possible). i became less conscious of the thoughts i thought. i became more eager to share my weird theories and some of them were good.

a lot of them were ranting but those were good too. finally, i have allowed myself to at the very least acknowledge when i was hurt or sad or feeling alone, and not keep it to myself like i always do.

i learned that when you least expect it, you are able to impart knowledge or stir up emotion in people. and that's good.



200 posts. quite a feat if i say so myself.

here's to bigger and better, silly and sillier.

to more rants, more joys, more pictures, and more of living.

thank you for allowing me to share my life with all of you.

the 24th

it's no secret that i've been greatly worried about turning 24 again. (the theme of the party was me turning 23 again).

with an exam during the afternoon of that day, going to bed was no treat. i stopped cramming at around 11:30 to write to the people who have influenced my 23rd year so much and went to bed with mixed feelings of fear (very much deserved. that exam was the killer), and non-excitement (every birthday is less than what i expect it to be).

but, apart from the expected horrible exam, the day was surprisingly funny. not laugh out loud funny, but punctuated with funny little moments.




i was queen for a day! (well, i decided i would be at the very least. hehehe)


spent in the comforts of my room practicing my new pleasure principle


my art wall


the famous million peso cake! i think the people were more curious about the cake than the celebrant. hehehe. but it was worth every cent.


no, 24 was not the life-changing, swan-turning, heart-wrenching experience i thought it would be, but it was spent with friends and family who have seen me through the best and worst times.










i was so touched by the attendees at this table. they went to a block event just for me! alpha (in red stripes) even sang and danced mr. kupido for me! and carrie, rita and elson were there too. touched, really.



realizations and resolutions

as a i told my good friend joey, i have decided that life will begin at 24. i hope to just get my ass up and just, as my friend philip puts it, cast my stone. because clarity might never come with just me sitting down.


me and jo the night we decided to get out and live more

at the start of the year, i wrote down things i thought would make my year more rich but i wasn't able to begin practicing them till law school ended for the year. i really do hope i'll be able to do some of them now:

trips out of town with good friends
afternoon picnics
boardwalk afternoon
sports sessions (i need a tennis instructor!!!)
food trips
museum trips
out of the ordinary daytrips
culture classes
volunteer sessions

major (well, not really) and important changes are:

not caring what other people think
not questioning each and every thing
giving myself time (to think, to decide, to feel)
treat myself better


i am looking forward to fireworks! which, by the way, do not only happen during the coming of the new year. who says we can't have fireworks everyday?








(photos taken by me and kip last new year's)

i know i keep on repeating the same patterns, but every day is a new day, and every year is a new year. for now, my life begins at 24, and it is a clean slate.