Good days, lazy me. Somehow, despite my efforts to seem the diligent intern, i always seem to find myself face down on my pillow, with pillow creases all over my face - only to be awaken by laway (hyaaaakkk) streaming down the side of my face. Nakakahiya ako. syaks. Is it because it is red week for me? I seem to be extremely sleepy and easily tired. I end up doing so little tuloy. But good days nonetheless.
Gym days were productive if i may say so myself. It is so funny, because this guy (whose name i do not care to find out) always seems to be grunting and flexing in front of me. super pa-cute and feeling gwapo. i think i shall christen him bj in my head. (from one bj to another, both somewhat cute until they start talking...boses PATO. its like everything that comes out of their mouths is QUACK QUACK QUACK). bj, on the scarce gym days that we have the same schedule always tries to talk to me (horror of horrors, by flexing and cursing at the gym help around the vicinity of my machines. eeek) i suppose i should be flattered at this neanderthal means of flirtation. hihihi, he can only come up with so much, i know. so i suppose i am at least amused.
another amusing thing at the gym today was when honey, my nutritionist said i was eating too little now. TOO LITTLE! i never thought i'd see the day. i am now encouraged to take "light" merienda to up my calorie count. candice, you'd be so proud. trainer from hell....were on our way!!!
hmm. i am going to yet another clp (christian life program - entry point to singles for christ), i think tonight, the topic is according to my dad, "WHAT IT MEANS TO BE A CHRISTIAN". hmm...this is not a talk included in our yfc youth camp, so maybe for tonight i will try to listen.
ah, before i forget, yesterday i chanced upon my good friend anna and i suddenly got a glimpse of how different we've become. i dont know if i was changed a lot by new york or if she was changed a lot by her british boyfriend, or weve both been changed a lot by both. let it be known that i have always, always been envious of this girl, because she was always the kind of girl i wanted to be. last night though, it seems as if she's moved in a different direction. or is it that ive become, or am on my way to becoming the person i actually want to be (surprisingly not her). now that i think about it, it surprises me to have realized that i am actually getting comfortable in my own skin, in my own life. WOW. breakthrough. for my blogstalkers (if youve made it this far) BE SUPER PROUD OF ME!!!! this has been on my to-do list (lists aissa!) since i hit puberty, and now i am actually on the way to being able to check it.
i shall ponder on this thought more.
today i came across this quote today that said "what exciting thing shall i do today? don't ask me about tomorrow, today is all i know." isn't that nice? :)
there you go.
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
Monday, April 19, 2004
a good lazy weekend.
yesterday was good. even the exam it began with was not so bad. in the morning i took the qualifying exam for the ateneo law school. i dont really know how much first impressions matter with these sorts of things, but i really did not feel right at home in that school, in that building with the people around me. maybe i REALLy am UP to the core. even with all the intellectually proud walking about and running amuck in up, i still manage to feel that i somehow fit in. or do i feel that because i just want to feel it? does this make sense?
but the afternoon part was heaven if i may say so myself. a saturday alone in the house with the *ahem trooper at my disposal. i so rarely get to stay home and do anything i want...that doesnt concern me just locking myself in my room. aaaahhh...yesterday, i went to the mall, bought myself a rice box (ham and bacon, hickory barbecue), and THEN, went back home and ate in all in the comfort of my parent's (please nobody tell my mom) air-conditioned room, particularly on the much coveted LAZYBOY. heaven. ate while watching the MTV summer party at the hamptons, and afterwards dessert of chocolate donuts. so unhealthy, but, BOY WAS I HAPPY. and to make things even more perfect, sims the whole darn day! hay.
heaven.
today was..well, an orgy of sorts still. (gastronomically of course). i finally got to see what all the fuss over GONUTS DONUTS was about. hmm. and the line was surprisingly short. but i was thinking again today, why shouldn't i be a food critic, or a food columnist? hmm. i mean, i already AM a LARDBALL to begin with.
aaaahhh. but my aching legs remind me of the past week's worth of workouts. resolution: (must be put out into the universe) IF CANNOT LOSE THE WEIGHT, AT LEAST STRIVE TO BE TONED, NOT FLABBY. so there. hell's workout with the squats and the charlies and what-have-yous. and it hurts so much! next week, yoga. hihihi.
this better be good.
but the afternoon part was heaven if i may say so myself. a saturday alone in the house with the *ahem trooper at my disposal. i so rarely get to stay home and do anything i want...that doesnt concern me just locking myself in my room. aaaahhh...yesterday, i went to the mall, bought myself a rice box (ham and bacon, hickory barbecue), and THEN, went back home and ate in all in the comfort of my parent's (please nobody tell my mom) air-conditioned room, particularly on the much coveted LAZYBOY. heaven. ate while watching the MTV summer party at the hamptons, and afterwards dessert of chocolate donuts. so unhealthy, but, BOY WAS I HAPPY. and to make things even more perfect, sims the whole darn day! hay.
heaven.
today was..well, an orgy of sorts still. (gastronomically of course). i finally got to see what all the fuss over GONUTS DONUTS was about. hmm. and the line was surprisingly short. but i was thinking again today, why shouldn't i be a food critic, or a food columnist? hmm. i mean, i already AM a LARDBALL to begin with.
aaaahhh. but my aching legs remind me of the past week's worth of workouts. resolution: (must be put out into the universe) IF CANNOT LOSE THE WEIGHT, AT LEAST STRIVE TO BE TONED, NOT FLABBY. so there. hell's workout with the squats and the charlies and what-have-yous. and it hurts so much! next week, yoga. hihihi.
this better be good.
Sunday, April 18, 2004
i think i am beginning to get it!Ü
eureka!
if you will notice...though still in the works, i think i am getting it! HTML! wow. i never thought i could be this computer literate. me, who quit my job because i didn't want to work excel for the rest of my life. wow. it must be because i am 22. thank you BONBON!!!
me likey i think.
if you will notice...though still in the works, i think i am getting it! HTML! wow. i never thought i could be this computer literate. me, who quit my job because i didn't want to work excel for the rest of my life. wow. it must be because i am 22. thank you BONBON!!!
me likey i think.
Thursday, April 15, 2004
growing up?
is this the meaning of growing up? here are some of the things i had to do this week.
MONDAY
finish the trademarks files that I had to update
dinner with deng, bri, skipp, and bon
GYM
TUESDAY
still more work, files upon files.
GYM
CLP at Eastwood Chapel.
WEDNESDAY
begin a new assignment, updating Pandiman files and creating a comprehensible database.
GYM
help kip shop for his ILC essentials, the first one i'm not going to! (because i am sfc???)
THURSDAY
continue the update with Pandiman files
GYM
FRIDAY
Pandiman still (this is gonna take a while...)
GYM
YOGA with Cherry.
My God. My week. Work and gym, and the occasional dinner, plus a CLP. What a grown-up schedule. What happened to spur-of-the-moment movie dates, to sudden lunches-turned-into-long-coffee-talks in Katipunan, to picnics in the park. Everything seemed like such a piece of cake. Suddenly, I'm not in such a hurry to grow up. Except that I am. Much to my dismay. Peter Pan was on to something.
MONDAY
finish the trademarks files that I had to update
dinner with deng, bri, skipp, and bon
GYM
TUESDAY
still more work, files upon files.
GYM
CLP at Eastwood Chapel.
WEDNESDAY
begin a new assignment, updating Pandiman files and creating a comprehensible database.
GYM
help kip shop for his ILC essentials, the first one i'm not going to! (because i am sfc???)
THURSDAY
continue the update with Pandiman files
GYM
FRIDAY
Pandiman still (this is gonna take a while...)
GYM
YOGA with Cherry.
My God. My week. Work and gym, and the occasional dinner, plus a CLP. What a grown-up schedule. What happened to spur-of-the-moment movie dates, to sudden lunches-turned-into-long-coffee-talks in Katipunan, to picnics in the park. Everything seemed like such a piece of cake. Suddenly, I'm not in such a hurry to grow up. Except that I am. Much to my dismay. Peter Pan was on to something.
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
pink easter sundays
pink easter sunday
it must be said, and remembered, on this pink easter sunday, i met someone. not really sparks flying-electric shocking-blushing met someone, but he did say he loved my name. and now i love love love it too. a million times more than before. SOPHIA....i love that name Ü
there you go. documented until time immemorial.
btw, i chose to write about sunday because quite frankly, today sucks. bad encounters with the third kind: (atenistas hehehe. )
it must be said, and remembered, on this pink easter sunday, i met someone. not really sparks flying-electric shocking-blushing met someone, but he did say he loved my name. and now i love love love it too. a million times more than before. SOPHIA....i love that name Ü
there you go. documented until time immemorial.
btw, i chose to write about sunday because quite frankly, today sucks. bad encounters with the third kind: (atenistas hehehe. )
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
philosophical chats that matter
philosohical chats that matter...
with candice (i think i was helped with this too!)
deng: so.... i am online.
deng:
sophia: aaaaahhhh...
sophia: this was a fun night
deng: it was a good night.
deng: my palm's are always itching lately
sophia: how different is fun from good?
deng: dunno why.
sophia: maybe it means you will come across a....
sophia: hand fungus.
sophia:
deng: i was agreeing when i said it was a good night. ..it was an add on.
deng: happy evening.
sophia: ah. okay
sophia: i thought we were comparing levels
deng: sophie...
sophia: yes candice?
sophia: lemme guess...
sophia: you LOVE my name.
deng: i'm having this... itch in my.. system. like... i wanna ...hmm.. could it be, "WORK" na? something like that.
deng: i guess it's a good thing.. that i actually "want" to work na..
deng: but it's more of... i want to have my own life na. find and form my own.. identity..life.. lam mo yun?? yon.
deng: serious thoughts attacks..
sophia: it could be.
sophia: i think though, that your identity now is not a problem at all. its quite brilliant if i may say so myself
deng: like, i'm actually getting scared of being too dependent sa parents ko. like i feel like it's not such a healthy thing.
deng: ..awwww......
deng: thanks.
deng:
sophia:
sophia: here are my thoughts on that: i think, your parents love you too much to see your being dependent on them as a burden. plus, they see naman how happy you are. and its not like naghihirap kayo or anything. i think, its because YOU love them too much kaya you don't want them to think na youre overextending your welcome. and you want to give them more reasons to be proud of you maybe?
sophia: at saka, wanting to be independent is never a bad thing naman eh.
deng: yes.
deng: super right.
sophia: are you still there candice?
deng: yeah but on being independent, it's like... i don't see myself being allowed to be independent by my mom. even if maybe she doesn't mean to. parang, she wants me to get a job, but she won't let me drive, and yung mga GUSTO ko talaga (ex. wwf) hindi siya super happy about it. she wants me to be successful para daw pag namatay siya or something stable na ko. pero hindi naman niya ko binibigyan ng "freedom" to be doing things on my own. parang, i feel as long as i'm in this house, being fed and supported by my father and mother.... i can never really ..explore and do the things i really want.
deng: ang haba.
deng: hihi!
deng: dunno if it makes sense. ..pero yun lang feeling ko.
deng:
sophia: hmm...
sophia: ganyan din naman ang feeling ko.
deng: so is it just a phase then?
deng: will this itch go away?
deng: can we live together na lang?
sophia: yung dad ko, he was never really supportive of my move to advertising last year, kasi feeling niya mas masusuportahan ako ng law profession, especially when he passes it on to me.
sophia: i was always resentful of that, until now.
sophia: kasi nakikita ko na totoo.
sophia: in your case, alam ko na hindi ganun.
sophia: still there?
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deng: hindi ganun what?
deng: sorry nag-loko ym, nadsicon.
sophia: kasi the field you want to explore is not as lucrative as advertising even.
sophia: siguro, nakikita lang ng mom mo na hindi kasi siya stable na field.
deng: o nga. my mom kasi likes yung mga networks, advertising, etc,etc.. parang kasi mas pwedeng ipagmayabang na type.
sophia: i know na hindi naman nagmamatter sayo talaga yung income as long as you love the work.
deng: e... ayoko dun e!
sophia: kaya lang, siguro iniisip lang din niya, papano na lang niyan pag wala na sila to back you financially? siyempre gusto nila na you will always have the comforts youre experiencing now.
deng: i sense that it bothers my mom that i don't care about the money. parang i feel na sa kanya feeling niya na hindi ako mabubuhay sa ganun. yeah, you're right na hindi kasi stabel tignan.
deng: the comforts na sinanay samin.
sophia: i dont think naman na yung tipong "yabang career" lang yung important sa mom mo. i think, more than that aspect, yung providing part that comes with the career is what she's worried about.
sophia: kasi, admittedly naman, it really doesn't pay well diba?
sophia: i think, if zoology paid well, hindi nga magiging issue yun eh.
sophia: i think she's just really worried about your well-being more than anything.
deng: yup.
deng: exactly.
sophia: gusto niya secure siya in the thought na pag wala na sila you will always have what you have now.
deng: yung providing part that comes with the career is what she's worried about. <- dizizit.
deng: but for me kasi... i can survive without all these extra things that i have now. like i could honestly live sa probinsya type of living e. parang.. hmmm.. napagod ako bigla mag-explain. hihi
deng: basta yon.
deng: yun nga. you're right.
deng: e so what should i do???
deng:
sophia: hmm.
sophia: siguro, you can try to experiment muna.
sophia: total, were young pa naman diba?
sophia: maybe, what you could do is enter a more stable career (that you could actually see yourself in), and then do the zoology thing on the side.
sophia: tipong, prod or content providing.
sophia: and then see how you can handle it.
sophia: like what i did when i opted not to take law muna.
sophia: i wanted to check out advertising, check out grad schools sa US, try to live there for a while, para alam ko talaga what i was saying no to.
sophia: kasi baka iniisip ng mom mo youre sayng no to those things without even trying. kaya hindi siya masyado supportive of your other causes.
sophia: if you really dont like it you could always quit naman eh.
deng: hmmmm...
sophia: siguro, the bottomline is you should find a way to apply yourself din na will provide more regularly. it doesnt even have to be prod, it can be business, it can be events, ikaw bahala.
deng: hmmm.
deng: ..
sophia: that way, you still have time to volunteer for your causes.
deng: hmmm...
sophia: kasi, if gusto mo naman talaga, makakahanap at makakahanap ka ng time
deng:
sophia: am i helping? making sense?
deng: i thought of that before.. kasi yung renting and providing video service na serious, you can really earn alot from it. tapos since sariling time ko, i could still do what i really love/want to do. ..pero iniisip ko pa lang e ayoko na!! is that normal?? parang dismayado na ko agad, parang pagod na ko kagad iniisip ko pa lang yung nag-vivideo ng mga events-events na wala namang saysay. duh. normal ba yun??
deng: yes, sophie, you're helping alot. i think i shall print this chat after.
deng: oh wait, sira pala printer ko. shet.
sophia: well, think of it this way. those jobs naman are what will allow you to have time for volunteering (what you really care for), parang the end justifies the means
deng: hmm..
deng: sometimes kasi i just think na life is too short to be doing things that you don't love.
sophia: second, kunyari you shoot events that may mean nothing to you personally (but indirectly, you share in the joy of the ones who will watch it, you help contribute to their happiness. and you get to capture it pa on film for all eternity)
deng: might die tomorrow and i'll end up doing nothing.
sophia: kaya mo nga isasabay diba?
sophia: para youre not really doing nothing.
sophia: i used to think that way din eh, but the reality is, when we start, we really cannot survive doing just the stuff we love.
sophia: are you still there deng?
sophia: am sorry. am i upsetting you with the stuff ive been saying na?
sophia: am just trying to put myself in your mom's shoes din, so you can maybe see stuff na you werent noticing before, or something?
BUZZ!!!
deng: still here!! no,no.... you're reeeeeally helping.
deng: i know naman din the points of my mom... i know i have to do a few sacrifices din naman... and stuff. yeah... i just.. need to hear it from someone else.
sophia: am glad then
sophia: ako rin, ganyan mag-isip.
sophia: pero now at least, im willing to work hard for it na.
deng: what do you want?
sophia: i see it as...preparing to put myself in a better position to help
deng: neat.
sophia: do you remember i said i wanted to be really rich?
sophia: so i could put up foundations, half-way houses, scholarships, etc.
sophia: a library!
deng: i just want to travel. be around the environment more.
deng: that's what i want.
sophia: and to travel too!
sophia: as in i reeeeaaaalllly wanna travel.
sophia: pero now, i cant afford to eh.
sophia: but when im a lawyer i will be able to.
sophia: and i will be able to help din while im still saving for all these things if i do pro bono
sophia: so i see that as my target for now.
deng: hmm.....
deng: i think...
deng: i'm confused as ever.
deng:
sophia: i think, until we die we will never be completely clear
sophia: i think we ARE supposed to be confused. bombarded with choices!
sophia: its the way God intended it! to show us how many roads we can take! how many shoes and lives we can try on! its all up to our imaginations!
sophia: kasi if everything were clear right away, life would be pretty boring. we'd be in a hurry to die and get out of it
deng: don't know which road to take..
deng: i wanna take them all!
sophia: you can take them all! all you have to do is start with one deng
sophia: just choose one first, and see where it leads you...
deng: k,k... but still don't know which.. hmm.. k.
sophia: until you take one you will never know diba? staying on the offsides waiting for the perfect opportunity isnt the key.
sophia: it doesnt have to be the right choice. i think our youth can afford us that.
deng: *nods head*
sophia: trail and error till we're forty!
deng: ok ok
sophia: forty centuries old
deng: but i hate trial and error..
deng: not that kinda person kasi e.. hmm.. maybe i should be..
sophia: life is trial and error
deng: hmm..
sophia: i think ha.
sophia: para lang yan nung nag-arki ka.
sophia: tapos nagbroad, tapos, nagfilm. trial and error.
deng: just gets ... crazier when you're older..
deng: though we are still young.
sophia: its not a bad thing. its what gets us to the better choices
deng: k.. but you are right sophie.. just..
deng: i think i'm just realizing now that kahit hindi ako pinipressure ng parents ko or anything, dahil dun napepressure ako. parang tuloy nawawalan ako ng patience sa buhay ko.
deng: but
sophia: dahil saan?
sophia: i think you have such a wonderful life nga eh! lagi kita kinukwento sa dad ko, pramis
deng: anyway, the good thing is that i'm excited to go looking for a job na. a future. though i'm still thinking of vet school. pero am genuinely excited of the future..
deng:
sophia: aaahhh...what are the possibilities na youre thinking of exploring?
deng: i do have a wonderful life and am SUUUUUUUUPER grateful. maybe it's just the sense of.. being independent is what i'm looking for. having to call things my own.
deng: coz of ME. coz of MY hard work.
deng: ganun.
sophia: ayun na nga! you're all set then! the search is on! bring out the shoes!
sophia: lady candice shall try them on!!!
BUZZ!!!
deng: hehe.. size 8 please. or 7. merci! merci! hihi! ....i have na places to visit when i get back from surigao. ..wwf,lakbay tv kahit abs,
sophia: madame sophia and lady candice and duchess czarevna
sophia: hihihi.
deng: UN
sophia: abs will wonder whose aura is brightening their halls
deng: environment broadcast circle.. lam mo yun?
sophia: go! go! go! am so excited for you! and i will support you all the way!
deng: yeah.. i will revolutionize lakbay and bring all those wealthy caucasians to our heavenly shores.
sophia: hindi ko alam yung environment broadcast circle
deng: browsed it sa web. tapos one of the heads si chin-chin gutierrez.
deng: wala lang.
sophia: oooh. chin chin.
sophia: hmm. i hear mixed reviews about her.
sophia: but if she can be behind such a worthy cause...
deng: o nga e.. parang eccentric siya
deng: talagang eccentric pala
sophia: sabi kasi ng theater people, maldita daw siya sobra eh.
deng: kakaiba.. activist na sosyal na ..feeling ko moody.. na masungit.
sophia: she did this one play with dulaang up.
deng: hihi!
deng: oooooh, wanna learn how to dive?
sophia: hihihi. kinda like "prostitute/serial killer/lesbian"
deng: yeah!! haha!!
sophia: sure! im up for learning as long as its within my capabilities
deng: i_am_a_lesbian_prostitue_serial_killer@yahoo.com.
deng: i want kasi to learn!!!
sophia: hihihi. i think...this is the yahoo winner!
sophia: saan tayo mag-aaral?
deng: kanina i asked yung sa padi sa powerplant. P11,500. 8-10 hours lecture, then 3 sessions sa pool, then yung outing dive na sa ANILAO.
sophia: oooh. magpapaalam ako.
deng: it can be all over and we'll be certified divers in a week.
deng:
deng: but then.... ayaw ng mom ko.
deng: pero i'll force it upon her!
deng: hihi!
sophia: cool! its not the cheafest in makati though
deng: oh no it certainly ain't cheaf!
sophia: hihihi ;D
deng:
sophia:
deng: just wanted to hug you
sophia: am glad we had this talk!
deng: me too.
deng: thanks.
sophia: thanks too! and you're welcome
sophia: what are you thinking candice?
deng: i'm thinking i've a long ways to go..
sophia: we all do! youve got so many to your credit na nga eh!
sophia: kaya yan!
deng:
deng: what credit...
deng: huwa?
sophia: i mean, hindi ka pa nagsisimula, marami ka na agad bankable pieces of work.
deng: yes....kaya yan. it's a pretty funky crazy adventure.
sophia: your award-winning thesis...howie severino's text, all those per project basis na racket...lahat yan nafa-factor in.
sophia: you're an ARTISTE waiting to be discovered!
sophia: lahat pag-aagawan ka if you show interest im sure
deng: those things..they feel empty though. dunno...maybe not. but still grateful.
deng: thanks...
sophia: hmm. basta remember what we talked about.
deng: i will conquer the world!!!!!!!
deng:
sophia: they may seem empty, but they are your ticket to being on the way to doing what you truly love!
sophia: we shall conquer the UNIVERSE!
sophia: like she-ra and he-man
sophia: masters of the universe!
deng: yes.. we shall. it is ours for the taking..to rise above our heads and bring it to heaven.
deng: huh?! hihi! basta yon.
sophia: mali-mali ba ang cartoon trivia ko.
deng: tama,tama.. ako si she-ra!
sophia: akala ko dun yun. diba si he-man...master of the universe?
sophia: hihihi...so ako si he-man
deng: hi, he-man sopho.
deng:
deng:
sophia: i am a lesbian_prostitue_serial killer
deng: _dominatrix.
sophia: ah, but of course!
deng: yun yung version mo. may DOMINATRIX na dagdag.
sophia: WA-PAK!!!
deng: meeeeeeeeeeOOOOOOOOOOWWWWW!!!!! prrrrrrrrrrrrr.......
deng: hihi!
sophia: hihihi.
sophia: yeeeps!
sophia: my dad is threatening to shut the pc down na!
deng: hehe
deng: ok!
sophia: ipepaste ko pa ito sa blog to document it now and forevermore
sophia:
deng: thanks again spohie..
deng: super.
deng: SUPER.
sophia: good night candice!
deng:
sophia: ako rin. i mean it!
deng: good night.
sophia: have a fantastic sleep
deng: you too!
sophia: and, wonderful dreams that you will remember in the morning, and every time to wish to remember
deng: oooh, maybe i should post it sa blog ko din. for more! :
deng:
sophia: i read it in your blog
deng: awww,thanks!!
deng: that would be fantastic.
sophia: yes, it would.
deng: thanks, thanks.
sophia: lets talk about dreams next time
sophia: good night deng!
sophia: MWAH!
deng: ok.
deng: mwah!
sophia: aluvyatilltheend!!!
deng: i love you till hugs go extinct.
sophia: aluvyatilltheend!!!
deng: hug! hug! hug!
deng: john lennon rules!!!!!!!!
deng: hihi!
deng: k.
sophia: <<>>
with chada
BUZZ!!!
BUZZ!!!
dyane_13: ey! musta na?
sophia: okay naman.
sophia: medyo busy.
sophia: nag-iintern na ako sa law office nina papa.
sophia: pero masaya naman.
sophia: ikaw?
sophia: kamusta?
dyane_13: saan?
dyane_13: waaahhh! eto, naghahanap ng summer job at part time job till oct..may lam ka ba
sophia: hmm. wala eh.
sophia: pag may nalaman ako, sasabihan kita.
sophia: noon, meron. sa yeaps.
sophia: may website ata sila.
sophia: www.yeaps.org.
sophia: try mo lang.
sophia: hindi ako sure.
sophia: or, go to ivolunteer.ph
dyane_13: ah cge, pls.
dyane_13: grabe! klngn ko tlga ng work..
sophia: bakit?
dyane_13: ngaung summer kc la ko pera..
dyane_13: sa nxt sem kc 3 units n nmn ako..kainis! nausog na nmn buhay ko!
sophia: bakit?
sophia: anong nangyari sayo? diba dapat graduating ka na?
dyane_13: biglang hinde ako pinayagan mag-practicum nxt sem
sophia: bakit?
dyane_13: haaayyy..sumabit ko dun sa isang major ko last sem
sophia: may nabagsak ka ba?
sophia:
dyane_13: kaya yun..
sophia: haaaaaayyyy chada. dapat good example sa mga bata.
sophia: try your best na lang.
sophia: baka dapat nagrereview ka pala instead na nagwowork.
dyane_13: teka,may klala ka bang jeanette caquilala?
sophia: or kumukuha ng extra credits or someting.
dyane_13: ac2ly,ung subj na un s subj ko pa last skul yr -ung hell sem ko nun
dyane_13: na-4 ako tapos ngremovals ako last sem at bagsak..kaya yun
sophia: eh ayun na nga. ikaw lang talaga makakaayos niyan.
sophia: pagdasal mo na lang siguro.
sophia: tanungin mo si God what it is you really need to do. baka kaya nahihirapan ka makakuha ng job kasi hindi yun yung dapat mo na focus right now.
sophia: but of course, thats just my opinion.
dyane_13: dpa rin nmn ako nghahanap..nagtatanong-tanong pa lng dn ako
dyane_13: haaayy..sobra ko pinagdadasal tlga to..
sophia: kaya mo yan chada.
sophia: basta set your priorities straight.
dyane_13: haaayy..thanks ia..
dyane_13: ive thot of this a lot of times na dn kc and ive bin prayin' for things matagal na
dyane_13: and i just feel na klngn ko n tlga at least mg-work part-time kc nahihiya narn tlga ko sa bahay
sophia: hmm. ang worry ko lang kasi is that if you work, baka mabawas pa lalo yung focus mo.
dyane_13: part time lang nmn dn hanap ko e..
dyane_13: hinde yan..
sophia: hindi natin alam yun chada.
sophia: isipin mo na lang na ang priority talaga mag-graduate. kasi mas mabilis ka makakatulong if real job na yung makukuha mo diba?
sophia: at saka kahit na may part time ka, magwo-worry at magwoworry din magulang mo sayo dahil iniisip nila na hindi ka pa tapos.
sophia: yun kasi yung importante.
dyane_13: oh well..
dyane_13: haaayy..cge, ill think abt that..
sophia: sana naintingihan mo rin yung point ko.
dyane_13: or naisip ko dn kc..myt settle for kaht SA lng
dyane_13: yup, i do get ur point
dyane_13: sori makulet..pro un nga,iba n kc tlga feeling ko sa panahong to
sophia: what do you mean?
dyane_13: i dunno, di nmn sa pinepressure nko ng nanay ko 2 work & help
dyane_13: pro lam mo ung napifeel mo na n nahihiya lng tlga siya sabihin n hello?! klngn ko n ng tulong!
sophia: yun na nga.
sophia: ganun pa rin yung stand ko diane.
dyane_13: naiintndhan ko nmn po gsto mo sabihin..
sophia: hindi yung pagwork mo now yung hinahanap niya. yung dedication mo na mag-aral. yung malaman niya matatapos ka na.
sophia: para sa akin, kahit bali-baligtarin natin yung pinag-uusapan natin yun at yun pa rin yung idadahilan ko.
sophia: pero gaya ng sabi ko, hindi naman ako ang magdedesisyon.
sophia: ikaw.
sophia: ang sinasabi ko lang, if inaantay mo ako na magbago yung isip ko about it so i can see it your way, it probably wont.
dyane_13: haaayyy..
dyane_13: o sya, hafta go na po..
sophia: okay chada.
sophia: sana hindi mo isipin na inaaway kita.
dyane_13: salamat ia!
dyane_13: hinde noh, ano ka ba?!
sophia: gusto ko lang na matapos ka na.
sophia: pati ako, nag-aalala na sa'yo
sophia: basta pagdasal mo lang yan
dyane_13: believe me, ako din..
sophia:
dyane_13: thanks ulet!!! naappreciate ko po..
dyane_13:
with candice (i think i was helped with this too!)
deng: so.... i am online.
deng:
sophia: aaaaahhhh...
sophia: this was a fun night
deng: it was a good night.
deng: my palm's are always itching lately
sophia: how different is fun from good?
deng: dunno why.
sophia: maybe it means you will come across a....
sophia: hand fungus.
sophia:
deng: i was agreeing when i said it was a good night. ..it was an add on.
deng: happy evening.
sophia: ah. okay
sophia: i thought we were comparing levels
deng: sophie...
sophia: yes candice?
sophia: lemme guess...
sophia: you LOVE my name.
deng: i'm having this... itch in my.. system. like... i wanna ...hmm.. could it be, "WORK" na? something like that.
deng: i guess it's a good thing.. that i actually "want" to work na..
deng: but it's more of... i want to have my own life na. find and form my own.. identity..life.. lam mo yun?? yon.
deng: serious thoughts attacks..
sophia: it could be.
sophia: i think though, that your identity now is not a problem at all. its quite brilliant if i may say so myself
deng: like, i'm actually getting scared of being too dependent sa parents ko. like i feel like it's not such a healthy thing.
deng: ..awwww......
deng: thanks.
deng:
sophia:
sophia: here are my thoughts on that: i think, your parents love you too much to see your being dependent on them as a burden. plus, they see naman how happy you are. and its not like naghihirap kayo or anything. i think, its because YOU love them too much kaya you don't want them to think na youre overextending your welcome. and you want to give them more reasons to be proud of you maybe?
sophia: at saka, wanting to be independent is never a bad thing naman eh.
deng: yes.
deng: super right.
sophia: are you still there candice?
deng: yeah but on being independent, it's like... i don't see myself being allowed to be independent by my mom. even if maybe she doesn't mean to. parang, she wants me to get a job, but she won't let me drive, and yung mga GUSTO ko talaga (ex. wwf) hindi siya super happy about it. she wants me to be successful para daw pag namatay siya or something stable na ko. pero hindi naman niya ko binibigyan ng "freedom" to be doing things on my own. parang, i feel as long as i'm in this house, being fed and supported by my father and mother.... i can never really ..explore and do the things i really want.
deng: ang haba.
deng: hihi!
deng: dunno if it makes sense. ..pero yun lang feeling ko.
deng:
sophia: hmm...
sophia: ganyan din naman ang feeling ko.
deng: so is it just a phase then?
deng: will this itch go away?
deng: can we live together na lang?
sophia: yung dad ko, he was never really supportive of my move to advertising last year, kasi feeling niya mas masusuportahan ako ng law profession, especially when he passes it on to me.
sophia: i was always resentful of that, until now.
sophia: kasi nakikita ko na totoo.
sophia: in your case, alam ko na hindi ganun.
sophia: still there?
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deng: hindi ganun what?
deng: sorry nag-loko ym, nadsicon.
sophia: kasi the field you want to explore is not as lucrative as advertising even.
sophia: siguro, nakikita lang ng mom mo na hindi kasi siya stable na field.
deng: o nga. my mom kasi likes yung mga networks, advertising, etc,etc.. parang kasi mas pwedeng ipagmayabang na type.
sophia: i know na hindi naman nagmamatter sayo talaga yung income as long as you love the work.
deng: e... ayoko dun e!
sophia: kaya lang, siguro iniisip lang din niya, papano na lang niyan pag wala na sila to back you financially? siyempre gusto nila na you will always have the comforts youre experiencing now.
deng: i sense that it bothers my mom that i don't care about the money. parang i feel na sa kanya feeling niya na hindi ako mabubuhay sa ganun. yeah, you're right na hindi kasi stabel tignan.
deng: the comforts na sinanay samin.
sophia: i dont think naman na yung tipong "yabang career" lang yung important sa mom mo. i think, more than that aspect, yung providing part that comes with the career is what she's worried about.
sophia: kasi, admittedly naman, it really doesn't pay well diba?
sophia: i think, if zoology paid well, hindi nga magiging issue yun eh.
sophia: i think she's just really worried about your well-being more than anything.
deng: yup.
deng: exactly.
sophia: gusto niya secure siya in the thought na pag wala na sila you will always have what you have now.
deng: yung providing part that comes with the career is what she's worried about. <- dizizit.
deng: but for me kasi... i can survive without all these extra things that i have now. like i could honestly live sa probinsya type of living e. parang.. hmmm.. napagod ako bigla mag-explain. hihi
deng: basta yon.
deng: yun nga. you're right.
deng: e so what should i do???
deng:
sophia: hmm.
sophia: siguro, you can try to experiment muna.
sophia: total, were young pa naman diba?
sophia: maybe, what you could do is enter a more stable career (that you could actually see yourself in), and then do the zoology thing on the side.
sophia: tipong, prod or content providing.
sophia: and then see how you can handle it.
sophia: like what i did when i opted not to take law muna.
sophia: i wanted to check out advertising, check out grad schools sa US, try to live there for a while, para alam ko talaga what i was saying no to.
sophia: kasi baka iniisip ng mom mo youre sayng no to those things without even trying. kaya hindi siya masyado supportive of your other causes.
sophia: if you really dont like it you could always quit naman eh.
deng: hmmmm...
sophia: siguro, the bottomline is you should find a way to apply yourself din na will provide more regularly. it doesnt even have to be prod, it can be business, it can be events, ikaw bahala.
deng: hmmm.
deng: ..
sophia: that way, you still have time to volunteer for your causes.
deng: hmmm...
sophia: kasi, if gusto mo naman talaga, makakahanap at makakahanap ka ng time
deng:
sophia: am i helping? making sense?
deng: i thought of that before.. kasi yung renting and providing video service na serious, you can really earn alot from it. tapos since sariling time ko, i could still do what i really love/want to do. ..pero iniisip ko pa lang e ayoko na!! is that normal?? parang dismayado na ko agad, parang pagod na ko kagad iniisip ko pa lang yung nag-vivideo ng mga events-events na wala namang saysay. duh. normal ba yun??
deng: yes, sophie, you're helping alot. i think i shall print this chat after.
deng: oh wait, sira pala printer ko. shet.
sophia: well, think of it this way. those jobs naman are what will allow you to have time for volunteering (what you really care for), parang the end justifies the means
deng: hmm..
deng: sometimes kasi i just think na life is too short to be doing things that you don't love.
sophia: second, kunyari you shoot events that may mean nothing to you personally (but indirectly, you share in the joy of the ones who will watch it, you help contribute to their happiness. and you get to capture it pa on film for all eternity)
deng: might die tomorrow and i'll end up doing nothing.
sophia: kaya mo nga isasabay diba?
sophia: para youre not really doing nothing.
sophia: i used to think that way din eh, but the reality is, when we start, we really cannot survive doing just the stuff we love.
sophia: are you still there deng?
sophia: am sorry. am i upsetting you with the stuff ive been saying na?
sophia: am just trying to put myself in your mom's shoes din, so you can maybe see stuff na you werent noticing before, or something?
BUZZ!!!
deng: still here!! no,no.... you're reeeeeally helping.
deng: i know naman din the points of my mom... i know i have to do a few sacrifices din naman... and stuff. yeah... i just.. need to hear it from someone else.
sophia: am glad then
sophia: ako rin, ganyan mag-isip.
sophia: pero now at least, im willing to work hard for it na.
deng: what do you want?
sophia: i see it as...preparing to put myself in a better position to help
deng: neat.
sophia: do you remember i said i wanted to be really rich?
sophia: so i could put up foundations, half-way houses, scholarships, etc.
sophia: a library!
deng: i just want to travel. be around the environment more.
deng: that's what i want.
sophia: and to travel too!
sophia: as in i reeeeaaaalllly wanna travel.
sophia: pero now, i cant afford to eh.
sophia: but when im a lawyer i will be able to.
sophia: and i will be able to help din while im still saving for all these things if i do pro bono
sophia: so i see that as my target for now.
deng: hmm.....
deng: i think...
deng: i'm confused as ever.
deng:
sophia: i think, until we die we will never be completely clear
sophia: i think we ARE supposed to be confused. bombarded with choices!
sophia: its the way God intended it! to show us how many roads we can take! how many shoes and lives we can try on! its all up to our imaginations!
sophia: kasi if everything were clear right away, life would be pretty boring. we'd be in a hurry to die and get out of it
deng: don't know which road to take..
deng: i wanna take them all!
sophia: you can take them all! all you have to do is start with one deng
sophia: just choose one first, and see where it leads you...
deng: k,k... but still don't know which.. hmm.. k.
sophia: until you take one you will never know diba? staying on the offsides waiting for the perfect opportunity isnt the key.
sophia: it doesnt have to be the right choice. i think our youth can afford us that.
deng: *nods head*
sophia: trail and error till we're forty!
deng: ok ok
sophia: forty centuries old
deng: but i hate trial and error..
deng: not that kinda person kasi e.. hmm.. maybe i should be..
sophia: life is trial and error
deng: hmm..
sophia: i think ha.
sophia: para lang yan nung nag-arki ka.
sophia: tapos nagbroad, tapos, nagfilm. trial and error.
deng: just gets ... crazier when you're older..
deng: though we are still young.
sophia: its not a bad thing. its what gets us to the better choices
deng: k.. but you are right sophie.. just..
deng: i think i'm just realizing now that kahit hindi ako pinipressure ng parents ko or anything, dahil dun napepressure ako. parang tuloy nawawalan ako ng patience sa buhay ko.
deng: but
sophia: dahil saan?
sophia: i think you have such a wonderful life nga eh! lagi kita kinukwento sa dad ko, pramis
deng: anyway, the good thing is that i'm excited to go looking for a job na. a future. though i'm still thinking of vet school. pero am genuinely excited of the future..
deng:
sophia: aaahhh...what are the possibilities na youre thinking of exploring?
deng: i do have a wonderful life and am SUUUUUUUUPER grateful. maybe it's just the sense of.. being independent is what i'm looking for. having to call things my own.
deng: coz of ME. coz of MY hard work.
deng: ganun.
sophia: ayun na nga! you're all set then! the search is on! bring out the shoes!
sophia: lady candice shall try them on!!!
BUZZ!!!
deng: hehe.. size 8 please. or 7. merci! merci! hihi! ....i have na places to visit when i get back from surigao. ..wwf,lakbay tv kahit abs,
sophia: madame sophia and lady candice and duchess czarevna
sophia: hihihi.
deng: UN
sophia: abs will wonder whose aura is brightening their halls
deng: environment broadcast circle.. lam mo yun?
sophia: go! go! go! am so excited for you! and i will support you all the way!
deng: yeah.. i will revolutionize lakbay and bring all those wealthy caucasians to our heavenly shores.
sophia: hindi ko alam yung environment broadcast circle
deng: browsed it sa web. tapos one of the heads si chin-chin gutierrez.
deng: wala lang.
sophia: oooh. chin chin.
sophia: hmm. i hear mixed reviews about her.
sophia: but if she can be behind such a worthy cause...
deng: o nga e.. parang eccentric siya
deng: talagang eccentric pala
sophia: sabi kasi ng theater people, maldita daw siya sobra eh.
deng: kakaiba.. activist na sosyal na ..feeling ko moody.. na masungit.
sophia: she did this one play with dulaang up.
deng: hihi!
deng: oooooh, wanna learn how to dive?
sophia: hihihi. kinda like "prostitute/serial killer/lesbian"
deng: yeah!! haha!!
sophia: sure! im up for learning as long as its within my capabilities
deng: i_am_a_lesbian_prostitue_serial_killer@yahoo.com.
deng: i want kasi to learn!!!
sophia: hihihi. i think...this is the yahoo winner!
sophia: saan tayo mag-aaral?
deng: kanina i asked yung sa padi sa powerplant. P11,500. 8-10 hours lecture, then 3 sessions sa pool, then yung outing dive na sa ANILAO.
sophia: oooh. magpapaalam ako.
deng: it can be all over and we'll be certified divers in a week.
deng:
deng: but then.... ayaw ng mom ko.
deng: pero i'll force it upon her!
deng: hihi!
sophia: cool! its not the cheafest in makati though
deng: oh no it certainly ain't cheaf!
sophia: hihihi ;D
deng:
sophia:
deng: just wanted to hug you
sophia: am glad we had this talk!
deng: me too.
deng: thanks.
sophia: thanks too! and you're welcome
sophia: what are you thinking candice?
deng: i'm thinking i've a long ways to go..
sophia: we all do! youve got so many to your credit na nga eh!
sophia: kaya yan!
deng:
deng: what credit...
deng: huwa?
sophia: i mean, hindi ka pa nagsisimula, marami ka na agad bankable pieces of work.
deng: yes....kaya yan. it's a pretty funky crazy adventure.
sophia: your award-winning thesis...howie severino's text, all those per project basis na racket...lahat yan nafa-factor in.
sophia: you're an ARTISTE waiting to be discovered!
sophia: lahat pag-aagawan ka if you show interest im sure
deng: those things..they feel empty though. dunno...maybe not. but still grateful.
deng: thanks...
sophia: hmm. basta remember what we talked about.
deng: i will conquer the world!!!!!!!
deng:
sophia: they may seem empty, but they are your ticket to being on the way to doing what you truly love!
sophia: we shall conquer the UNIVERSE!
sophia: like she-ra and he-man
sophia: masters of the universe!
deng: yes.. we shall. it is ours for the taking..to rise above our heads and bring it to heaven.
deng: huh?! hihi! basta yon.
sophia: mali-mali ba ang cartoon trivia ko.
deng: tama,tama.. ako si she-ra!
sophia: akala ko dun yun. diba si he-man...master of the universe?
sophia: hihihi...so ako si he-man
deng: hi, he-man sopho.
deng:
deng:
sophia: i am a lesbian_prostitue_serial killer
deng: _dominatrix.
sophia: ah, but of course!
deng: yun yung version mo. may DOMINATRIX na dagdag.
sophia: WA-PAK!!!
deng: meeeeeeeeeeOOOOOOOOOOWWWWW!!!!! prrrrrrrrrrrrr.......
deng: hihi!
sophia: hihihi.
sophia: yeeeps!
sophia: my dad is threatening to shut the pc down na!
deng: hehe
deng: ok!
sophia: ipepaste ko pa ito sa blog to document it now and forevermore
sophia:
deng: thanks again spohie..
deng: super.
deng: SUPER.
sophia: good night candice!
deng:
sophia: ako rin. i mean it!
deng: good night.
sophia: have a fantastic sleep
deng: you too!
sophia: and, wonderful dreams that you will remember in the morning, and every time to wish to remember
deng: oooh, maybe i should post it sa blog ko din. for more! :
deng:
sophia: i read it in your blog
deng: awww,thanks!!
deng: that would be fantastic.
sophia: yes, it would.
deng: thanks, thanks.
sophia: lets talk about dreams next time
sophia: good night deng!
sophia: MWAH!
deng: ok.
deng: mwah!
sophia: aluvyatilltheend!!!
deng: i love you till hugs go extinct.
sophia: aluvyatilltheend!!!
deng: hug! hug! hug!
deng: john lennon rules!!!!!!!!
deng: hihi!
deng: k.
sophia: <<
with chada
BUZZ!!!
BUZZ!!!
dyane_13: ey! musta na?
sophia: okay naman.
sophia: medyo busy.
sophia: nag-iintern na ako sa law office nina papa.
sophia: pero masaya naman.
sophia: ikaw?
sophia: kamusta?
dyane_13: saan?
dyane_13: waaahhh! eto, naghahanap ng summer job at part time job till oct..may lam ka ba
sophia: hmm. wala eh.
sophia: pag may nalaman ako, sasabihan kita.
sophia: noon, meron. sa yeaps.
sophia: may website ata sila.
sophia: www.yeaps.org.
sophia: try mo lang.
sophia: hindi ako sure.
sophia: or, go to ivolunteer.ph
dyane_13: ah cge, pls.
dyane_13: grabe! klngn ko tlga ng work..
sophia: bakit?
dyane_13: ngaung summer kc la ko pera..
dyane_13: sa nxt sem kc 3 units n nmn ako..kainis! nausog na nmn buhay ko!
sophia: bakit?
sophia: anong nangyari sayo? diba dapat graduating ka na?
dyane_13: biglang hinde ako pinayagan mag-practicum nxt sem
sophia: bakit?
dyane_13: haaayyy..sumabit ko dun sa isang major ko last sem
sophia: may nabagsak ka ba?
sophia:
dyane_13: kaya yun..
sophia: haaaaaayyyy chada. dapat good example sa mga bata.
sophia: try your best na lang.
sophia: baka dapat nagrereview ka pala instead na nagwowork.
dyane_13: teka,may klala ka bang jeanette caquilala?
sophia: or kumukuha ng extra credits or someting.
dyane_13: ac2ly,ung subj na un s subj ko pa last skul yr -ung hell sem ko nun
dyane_13: na-4 ako tapos ngremovals ako last sem at bagsak..kaya yun
sophia: eh ayun na nga. ikaw lang talaga makakaayos niyan.
sophia: pagdasal mo na lang siguro.
sophia: tanungin mo si God what it is you really need to do. baka kaya nahihirapan ka makakuha ng job kasi hindi yun yung dapat mo na focus right now.
sophia: but of course, thats just my opinion.
dyane_13: dpa rin nmn ako nghahanap..nagtatanong-tanong pa lng dn ako
dyane_13: haaayy..sobra ko pinagdadasal tlga to..
sophia: kaya mo yan chada.
sophia: basta set your priorities straight.
dyane_13: haaayy..thanks ia..
dyane_13: ive thot of this a lot of times na dn kc and ive bin prayin' for things matagal na
dyane_13: and i just feel na klngn ko n tlga at least mg-work part-time kc nahihiya narn tlga ko sa bahay
sophia: hmm. ang worry ko lang kasi is that if you work, baka mabawas pa lalo yung focus mo.
dyane_13: part time lang nmn dn hanap ko e..
dyane_13: hinde yan..
sophia: hindi natin alam yun chada.
sophia: isipin mo na lang na ang priority talaga mag-graduate. kasi mas mabilis ka makakatulong if real job na yung makukuha mo diba?
sophia: at saka kahit na may part time ka, magwo-worry at magwoworry din magulang mo sayo dahil iniisip nila na hindi ka pa tapos.
sophia: yun kasi yung importante.
dyane_13: oh well..
dyane_13: haaayy..cge, ill think abt that..
sophia: sana naintingihan mo rin yung point ko.
dyane_13: or naisip ko dn kc..myt settle for kaht SA lng
dyane_13: yup, i do get ur point
dyane_13: sori makulet..pro un nga,iba n kc tlga feeling ko sa panahong to
sophia: what do you mean?
dyane_13: i dunno, di nmn sa pinepressure nko ng nanay ko 2 work & help
dyane_13: pro lam mo ung napifeel mo na n nahihiya lng tlga siya sabihin n hello?! klngn ko n ng tulong!
sophia: yun na nga.
sophia: ganun pa rin yung stand ko diane.
dyane_13: naiintndhan ko nmn po gsto mo sabihin..
sophia: hindi yung pagwork mo now yung hinahanap niya. yung dedication mo na mag-aral. yung malaman niya matatapos ka na.
sophia: para sa akin, kahit bali-baligtarin natin yung pinag-uusapan natin yun at yun pa rin yung idadahilan ko.
sophia: pero gaya ng sabi ko, hindi naman ako ang magdedesisyon.
sophia: ikaw.
sophia: ang sinasabi ko lang, if inaantay mo ako na magbago yung isip ko about it so i can see it your way, it probably wont.
dyane_13: haaayyy..
dyane_13: o sya, hafta go na po..
sophia: okay chada.
sophia: sana hindi mo isipin na inaaway kita.
dyane_13: salamat ia!
dyane_13: hinde noh, ano ka ba?!
sophia: gusto ko lang na matapos ka na.
sophia: pati ako, nag-aalala na sa'yo
sophia: basta pagdasal mo lang yan
dyane_13: believe me, ako din..
sophia:
dyane_13: thanks ulet!!! naappreciate ko po..
dyane_13:
Monday, April 12, 2004
the holy week in retrospect
my gawsh. where to begin. let us begin by stating the events from last tuesday night, which from now on, shall be referred to as the revenge of the seams. (and buttons)subtitled the heroics of the faithful blue jacket.
what a crazy day. imagined being squashed by two burly men on an overcrowded couch at rcbc makati being bored as always. you start picking on the loose threads of your impeccable chiffon shirt, when, to your dismay, the thread you are tugging on suddenly just gives way, taking with it the precious precocious button that protects your ample cleavage from the rest of the world. this is what happpened to me. save for my large leather bag, i had nothing that could keep me covered. needless to say, either man beside me was no longer bored. as luck would have it, my dad had in his possession an emergency sewing kit (the kind that hotels give out), and i was allowed to stitch my button in peace. my trusty blue sweatshirt, (brought to cover my butt while on the treadmill at the gym) completed my new quirky ensemble. (went very well with my pointy slingbacks, if i may say so myself). but alas! when i was sewing, three more buttons came out! (i managed to repair everything, by the way.
at the gym, later during the day, as i was in the middle of doing a very unfortunate stretch, i saw, to my horror, a huge hole in the crotch of my stretchy pants. on thong day, of all days! the trusty jacket again proved its worth. my pointy shoes, however, did not. they gave me a total of 8 blisters from my walks to the gym and back, to the clp, and back. ugh.
that was tuesday.
wednesday to saturday, were truly pasyon in every sense for me. suffering on all levels! gosh. to be trapped with relatives left and right and to have to sleep in close quarters with them in a hot unfinished room on the hottest of heatwaves. S-U-F-F-E-R-I-N-G. and i was sick for the most part. out of the count.
today, easter sunday was better i suppose. mass, and a dinner party. had a bit of a crush on one guy at the end of the evening. a teeny tiny one. but am over it of course. its inconsequential
tomorrow is a great day! work, gym, and dinner with good friends! can't wait!
upon reflection, i think i would like to end with a quote from oprah winfrey (my goddess). "how you spend your time defines who you are."
i think i spend my time pretty wisely.
good night and happy easter world!Ü
what a crazy day. imagined being squashed by two burly men on an overcrowded couch at rcbc makati being bored as always. you start picking on the loose threads of your impeccable chiffon shirt, when, to your dismay, the thread you are tugging on suddenly just gives way, taking with it the precious precocious button that protects your ample cleavage from the rest of the world. this is what happpened to me. save for my large leather bag, i had nothing that could keep me covered. needless to say, either man beside me was no longer bored. as luck would have it, my dad had in his possession an emergency sewing kit (the kind that hotels give out), and i was allowed to stitch my button in peace. my trusty blue sweatshirt, (brought to cover my butt while on the treadmill at the gym) completed my new quirky ensemble. (went very well with my pointy slingbacks, if i may say so myself). but alas! when i was sewing, three more buttons came out! (i managed to repair everything, by the way.
at the gym, later during the day, as i was in the middle of doing a very unfortunate stretch, i saw, to my horror, a huge hole in the crotch of my stretchy pants. on thong day, of all days! the trusty jacket again proved its worth. my pointy shoes, however, did not. they gave me a total of 8 blisters from my walks to the gym and back, to the clp, and back. ugh.
that was tuesday.
wednesday to saturday, were truly pasyon in every sense for me. suffering on all levels! gosh. to be trapped with relatives left and right and to have to sleep in close quarters with them in a hot unfinished room on the hottest of heatwaves. S-U-F-F-E-R-I-N-G. and i was sick for the most part. out of the count.
today, easter sunday was better i suppose. mass, and a dinner party. had a bit of a crush on one guy at the end of the evening. a teeny tiny one. but am over it of course. its inconsequential
tomorrow is a great day! work, gym, and dinner with good friends! can't wait!
upon reflection, i think i would like to end with a quote from oprah winfrey (my goddess). "how you spend your time defines who you are."
i think i spend my time pretty wisely.
good night and happy easter world!Ü
Monday, April 05, 2004
Progress?
hmm. today is progress day i would say.
cooped up in the house after a weekend of being sick like a dog. still am, actually, a lot, but strong enough to go to "work". hence the progress.
today, i started at the law office. an intern? i dont quite know what to call myself yet. for now, i am the boss's daughter wanting to do serious work.
today though, i got the feeling that i really, truly, might be cut out for it after all. law, i mean. i read two thick case files and understood them. finished reading them in one sitting! and i seemed to enjoy going through them! oh joy! could this really be my calling? we will find out more as the days unfold.
as i was walking from the gym from the office, i felt a sense of epiphany (what exactly does this word entail again? ). like i was starting anew, in makati? it felt like a nice enough set-up to me. it was a life i could get used to. i sort of felt like i was back in new york, walking block after block, knowing where i was headed. and the day was just really nice.
i was heading somewhere.
hmm...and to my surprise, the streets were strewn with cuties everywhere! it was like a smorgasbord! the gym, powerbooks live! (the surprisingly straight gpr), landmark (a cutie with an even cuter *ss), and even procter & gamble! i didnt expect to see so many of them all in one day.
nice if you can have it i suppose. but funnily, i stick to my stand. i'm really not looking right now. or rather, i'm looking, not buying. hah.
could this be signs of maturity? doesn't matter. i'm here for the ride. Ü
good night world! and thanks for a beautiful day!
cooped up in the house after a weekend of being sick like a dog. still am, actually, a lot, but strong enough to go to "work". hence the progress.
today, i started at the law office. an intern? i dont quite know what to call myself yet. for now, i am the boss's daughter wanting to do serious work.
today though, i got the feeling that i really, truly, might be cut out for it after all. law, i mean. i read two thick case files and understood them. finished reading them in one sitting! and i seemed to enjoy going through them! oh joy! could this really be my calling? we will find out more as the days unfold.
as i was walking from the gym from the office, i felt a sense of epiphany (what exactly does this word entail again? ). like i was starting anew, in makati? it felt like a nice enough set-up to me. it was a life i could get used to. i sort of felt like i was back in new york, walking block after block, knowing where i was headed. and the day was just really nice.
i was heading somewhere.
hmm...and to my surprise, the streets were strewn with cuties everywhere! it was like a smorgasbord! the gym, powerbooks live! (the surprisingly straight gpr), landmark (a cutie with an even cuter *ss), and even procter & gamble! i didnt expect to see so many of them all in one day.
nice if you can have it i suppose. but funnily, i stick to my stand. i'm really not looking right now. or rather, i'm looking, not buying. hah.
could this be signs of maturity? doesn't matter. i'm here for the ride. Ü
good night world! and thanks for a beautiful day!
Thursday, April 01, 2004
Of Mermaids at 22
OF MERMAIDS AT 22
What a smashing day it is. 22 seems to be getting on just swimmingly. SWIMMINGLY!
I might as well be a mermaid splashing around. Ü
Seems like i've been falling into fabulous day after fabulous day. Today was no exception.
On what was supposed to be a routine day, I:
met up with crazy friends A.K.A. Aistar, Chely, and Candy (CUE MUSIC..."Just wanna, just wanna...GIRLS JUST WANNA HAVE FUN!!!") for some nutty ABS-CBN artista hunting, and spotted such famous things as:
---> Jao mapa's batok. ( not really famous, but at least his name is)
---> Mickey Ferriols ( I had no clue who she was)
---> Ai-ai de las Alas ( in an apple green and yellow concoction, mean though)
---> the enimagtic (and right on time) John Lloyed Cruz (who was chased by fleetfoot herself)
---> and the lovely? Bea Alonzo.
-more fun though was hanging around the halls of the MTB set and feeling the evil lurking inside! HAHAHAÜ from the layered legs of the tacky dancers to the annoying inquisitiveness of the security guards (one for every square inch of the ABS-CBN compound)
it must also be said that i have found a true make-up friend in chely. finally! a real make-up maven to share this amateur's makeup woes. hihihi. if i could have all the blush and the lip gloss in the world, it would have been a happy life i think.
from the gym, to the "surprise" dinner with the PYFP (read: Presidential Youth Fellowship Program) gang. Twas so much fun! Laughed and laughed as always. Its a relief to be able to go somewhere and be the funny one after being the serious type everywhere else. And words must be given in tribute to GP'S BAD? EXPERIENCE IN A CHAIR. sounds truly nasty, i know.
and my new-found love for my "boyfriend" GP. hihihi. buti na lang game siya. Sweetie, if you're reading this, MWAH! Ü
and Senyorito Sam's presence of course, which was always a pleasure.
and darlings Pi and Kaye, the ever-present Ejay, and man of the minute JR.
GREAT NIGHT FOLKS!
aaahhh...a thought from the world of richard stine:
Every thing is always in the process of turning into something else.
Ha! Wait till you see me nect time world!
What a smashing day it is. 22 seems to be getting on just swimmingly. SWIMMINGLY!
I might as well be a mermaid splashing around. Ü
Seems like i've been falling into fabulous day after fabulous day. Today was no exception.
On what was supposed to be a routine day, I:
met up with crazy friends A.K.A. Aistar, Chely, and Candy (CUE MUSIC..."Just wanna, just wanna...GIRLS JUST WANNA HAVE FUN!!!") for some nutty ABS-CBN artista hunting, and spotted such famous things as:
---> Jao mapa's batok. ( not really famous, but at least his name is)
---> Mickey Ferriols ( I had no clue who she was)
---> Ai-ai de las Alas ( in an apple green and yellow concoction, mean though)
---> the enimagtic (and right on time) John Lloyed Cruz (who was chased by fleetfoot herself)
---> and the lovely? Bea Alonzo.
-more fun though was hanging around the halls of the MTB set and feeling the evil lurking inside! HAHAHAÜ from the layered legs of the tacky dancers to the annoying inquisitiveness of the security guards (one for every square inch of the ABS-CBN compound)
it must also be said that i have found a true make-up friend in chely. finally! a real make-up maven to share this amateur's makeup woes. hihihi. if i could have all the blush and the lip gloss in the world, it would have been a happy life i think.
from the gym, to the "surprise" dinner with the PYFP (read: Presidential Youth Fellowship Program) gang. Twas so much fun! Laughed and laughed as always. Its a relief to be able to go somewhere and be the funny one after being the serious type everywhere else. And words must be given in tribute to GP'S BAD? EXPERIENCE IN A CHAIR. sounds truly nasty, i know.
and my new-found love for my "boyfriend" GP. hihihi. buti na lang game siya. Sweetie, if you're reading this, MWAH! Ü
and Senyorito Sam's presence of course, which was always a pleasure.
and darlings Pi and Kaye, the ever-present Ejay, and man of the minute JR.
GREAT NIGHT FOLKS!
aaahhh...a thought from the world of richard stine:
Every thing is always in the process of turning into something else.
Ha! Wait till you see me nect time world!
the second day as 22
ah, march 30 was FABULOUS. (my new favorite word), almost got everything on my list checked. list goes:
go to mass : not check. kept on missing it. got to the communion part though. so i just prayed.
family meal: well, almost. had brunch with my mom and bro.
self-pampering day: facial, massage, and hot oil treatment - all accomplished for a fraction of what i thought i'd be spending - though slightly balanced by the ultra-expensive hair treatment. love, love, love the massages. I love massages! I think i deserve it din naman.
my new resolution: picture to document my fabulousness every year. and it did turn out FABULOUS!!! Ü if i may say so myself.
dinner party with relatives and good friends: good, great. behaved well, twas fun. overnighted (not as fun as expected) but was okay anyway. this morning was way funner! we slept till maybe ten, and had breakfast all the way till lunch. we laughed more than half the time.
for the 2nd day as a 22, spent the day being surprised and mildly embarrassed. in a fun and funny way i suppose. must be documented.
first: went to gail's phi kappa phi induction. thought i was just in for a snooze fest, but it ended up being half-way decent. the speaker was good, the speech was short, and the intermission was moving. but what was ultimately funny was when i saw a friend from BROADGUILD and i called him over. it was fun to see NOEL again. only, i kept calling him NOEL and didnt realize that his name was actually JAMESÜ (a sign that i'm getting soft in my old age?) gosh. was so embarrassed when in a subtle way i was reminded his name was james. (He said umm...JAMES when i was about to type in noel. hooboy. humiliation central. buti na lang he was a nice guy. makes me wonder though why he answered to the name noel)
but the final earth-shattering surprise of the day was running into carlo* (name changed to protect identity) in starbucks. my god! how could this have happened on the one day when i least expected it? i was not at all prepared. and ive been preparing myself so much everyday of my senior year last year. it was funny i suppose. at least i got to put in a bit of conversation kahit na konti. but he seems the same. so uncomfortable though. in a non-obvious way. hoped to see adam and ended up seeing carlo. i can say the famous "goodbye carlo" line now. (to one that is - i have so many CARLOs going around eh.) his entrance sure stopped me from an impending pity-party.
went to a mini-party where i saw the cutest dogs (a dachshund named pocholo, a small dog named boy george, pug named...(i dont remember), another named cutie pie, and another named brutus. amusing. good days.
till tomorrowÜ
go to mass : not check. kept on missing it. got to the communion part though. so i just prayed.
family meal: well, almost. had brunch with my mom and bro.
self-pampering day: facial, massage, and hot oil treatment - all accomplished for a fraction of what i thought i'd be spending - though slightly balanced by the ultra-expensive hair treatment. love, love, love the massages. I love massages! I think i deserve it din naman.
my new resolution: picture to document my fabulousness every year. and it did turn out FABULOUS!!! Ü if i may say so myself.
dinner party with relatives and good friends: good, great. behaved well, twas fun. overnighted (not as fun as expected) but was okay anyway. this morning was way funner! we slept till maybe ten, and had breakfast all the way till lunch. we laughed more than half the time.
for the 2nd day as a 22, spent the day being surprised and mildly embarrassed. in a fun and funny way i suppose. must be documented.
first: went to gail's phi kappa phi induction. thought i was just in for a snooze fest, but it ended up being half-way decent. the speaker was good, the speech was short, and the intermission was moving. but what was ultimately funny was when i saw a friend from BROADGUILD and i called him over. it was fun to see NOEL again. only, i kept calling him NOEL and didnt realize that his name was actually JAMESÜ (a sign that i'm getting soft in my old age?) gosh. was so embarrassed when in a subtle way i was reminded his name was james. (He said umm...JAMES when i was about to type in noel. hooboy. humiliation central. buti na lang he was a nice guy. makes me wonder though why he answered to the name noel)
but the final earth-shattering surprise of the day was running into carlo* (name changed to protect identity) in starbucks. my god! how could this have happened on the one day when i least expected it? i was not at all prepared. and ive been preparing myself so much everyday of my senior year last year. it was funny i suppose. at least i got to put in a bit of conversation kahit na konti. but he seems the same. so uncomfortable though. in a non-obvious way. hoped to see adam and ended up seeing carlo. i can say the famous "goodbye carlo" line now. (to one that is - i have so many CARLOs going around eh.) his entrance sure stopped me from an impending pity-party.
went to a mini-party where i saw the cutest dogs (a dachshund named pocholo, a small dog named boy george, pug named...(i dont remember), another named cutie pie, and another named brutus. amusing. good days.
till tomorrowÜ
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